I understand completly! My son Jason said good I'm glad to hear you say that. Now I would love to stay hear and watch you smoke all day but I have some errands to run first.As he was saying this I was deeply inhailing on my ciggy again, this time hollowing out my cheeks. I let a big ball of the creamy white smoke escape my mouth before sucking it back in. This drew his attention quickly to my mouth and away from what he was saying. Wow you seem to smoke better every time you light up. I just smiled realizing what he said to be true. He then stated that he wanted to test me. He wanted to see if we were on the same page, so he said he wanted me to be ready for him by 3 o'clock. He then bent down and gave me a quick peck, just barely grazing the side of my mouth. Can you do that for me Jess. I think I know what you want from me Jason. I will be ready for you by 3. Good then I'll see you then. And with that he left. Leaving me alone with my thoughts and my ciggys. All this was happening so fast I could'nt think straight. All I knew for sure was I really liked the way I felt while Jason watched me smoke. It seemed to make me feel loved and adored more than I ever had before. The thought of it being my son who was adoring me made it kind of strange, but also kind of exciting. I have never had any trouble finding dates since my divorce, that was'nt the problem. I just never really got attached to any of them. My focus was always on my son , my home , and my job. But now I had to admit I was feeling some of those old yearnings I had'nt felt since I fell in love with Jason's father 18 years ago. The rest of the day was mostly a blur. I did'nt have to be at work for the rest of the week, so I did a little house work and tanned by the pool for about an hour. I thought a little sun might accentuate the look I would be trying to acheve in a few hours. I tried not to smoke too much during the day , so I would really enjoy my ciggys later. Around 12:00 o'clock I ran myself a nice bubble bath with scented oils. I shaved my long tanned legs , giving them that silky smooth feel that all men love. Gitting out of the tub I caught my nude reflection in the door lenth mirror. This was truly not the body of a 36 year old women. Especially a women with an almost grown son. I took it all in, admirring my long shaven legs and nice tight stomach. My gaze drifted up to my big beautiful breast. They really did'nt sag at all . I guess all those trips to the gym have paid off. I caught myself thinking would I stack up against all those 17 year old girls my son was always taking out. Looking at myself one finale time I was sure I could more than stack up! I hurried into my room where I started to pick out what I would wear for my Jason. After I found a very elagant but reveiling outfit I started to put on my makeup. I decided to go with a very dramatic look. Heavy on the eyes and lips, I thought that would look best for my smoking. I then pulled my hair up into a kind of formal hairstyle which would best show off my youthful face. I decided then to have a kind of warm up ciggy to get me ready for Jason. I went to my purse and pulled out my pack of Marlboro Lights 100's. I slid one out of the pack and placed it between my wanting lips. I then went into my jewelry cabinet to retreive my most elagantly designed gold lighter{ saved for only the most special evenings}. I then lit the beautiful gold shinning lighter and brought it up to meet my waiting ciggy. Oh what a wonderful feeling, it had been nearly three hours since I had allowed myself this glorious indulgence. I drew hard and pulled the smoke deep into my lungs. I instantly got that little head rush you feel when you have'nt smoked in awhile. I leaned back in my soft chair and slowly released all that thick creamy smoke into the air above. I wondered if I would please my Jason. Whould I be all he wanted me to be? Would my makeup and outfit please him? If so how far would we go with this? I really had'nt made up my on mind about this last one. But I did know I wanted him to continue to watch me smoke. I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens. Once again I bring the long white cigarette to my lips and draw in that wonderful smoke. I close my darkly painted eyelids as I inhale. I hold all that smoke in for the longest time before letting it go in a nice full funnel straight up. I open my eyes and watch all that smoke swirl around and drift along the ceiling before disappearing. I turn and look at the clock and see it is now 2:45. Fifteen minutes until Jason returns. Fifteen minutes until my life is never the same. Fifteen minutes until my new life begins. Fifteen minutes, { to be continued} Well am I still on track ? Give me more feedback! It really seems to help my motivation. Thanx
